Its been a while :-)

so its been a little while since i've posted :-).. o well.. here's whats been goin on with me... i'm home from school and I'm enjoying the break :-)... i love being with my family and am enjoying spending more time with them than i have in the past :-)... so i'm working at bob evans 5 days a week. I love it and its decent money. God has also blessed me with some good relationships there and I hope that I can be a light for Him in that place that really is quite dark. I'm anticipating my New Hope internships even more right now being that they are only a month away!!! :-) (Chicago's even less!!!)... I can't wait to get out there and work in the inner city and share the love of God with some people who need it so desperately and are seeking for love in their lives! I believe that God has placed different things in my life for me to deal with so that I might be able to on a small level relate to some of these teens that I interact with :-).. I love being able to see my friends and hanging out with them... i really only have two friends here at home that i hang out with much at all and its sad to find out that the one will be moving at the end of july to georgia :-(... but God has a plan for all of us and I trust that we will still keep in touch and get together once in a while. In the whole guy realm- who knows where thats going to go... I have a close guy friend right now that I am able to talk to about a lot of stuff but we dont live so close and dont get to hang out and dont talk as much as we had been so I'm not thinking that anything more than a friendship is going to come out of it nor am I sure if I want anything more than a friendship to come out of it... don't get me wrong, he's a great guy... I just don't know that he's that guy for me... but, the guy for me is out there! :-) Which is awesome to think because he's better than any guy ive been interested in b/c they weren't the right fit for me! but he is !!!! I'm praying for him a lot and hope that he is saving himself for me just as I am saving all of myself for him. GOD HAS AN AMAZING PLAN FOR MY LIFE! AND I CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT WHAT IT IS!!!

a Change of Heart?

So i've always thought that God was leading me to work with teens in the inner cities. Ya know.. i mean there is a great need there... but lately... i feel being led elsewhere... I mean, i guess God can change your desires ya know... through different circumstances this year I have just felt burdened to disciple people... by no means do i feel qualified to do this however... but i have grown so much this year, that i just want to share it with other people andhelp them grow... growing up, my mom wasn't around... i didnt have any ladies in my life discipling and mentoring me... how i wish i had... how much it would have meant in my life.... and that just makes me want to invest in the lives of other girls so much! I can't wait to just learn more about God and see what He is going to do in my life and the lives of others this summer :-)... I feel as though He's got something exciting up His sleeve that I can't even imagine right now... I am still going on two missions trips to the inner city.. and am hoping that God clearly directs through those trips as to whether or not thats where I'm meant to be. God is pretty amazing and allows awesome people to work in our lives.. and I am so thankful for the spiritual mentors He has put into my life over the last several months.

So theres been so much goin on in my life lately... i don't even know where to start. Classes are coming to a close and i really need to do well on my finals and im trying to find the time to study... except that we havent been given the study guides yet and i dont want to study stuff i don't need.. aaahhhh.. im not a big fan of finals!.... and then... we have three games (hopefully) tomorrow... its gonna be a crazy busy weekend... and then God's teaching me so many lessons such as humility, changing my heart, challenging me, making me learn patience, and trusting that He has a perfect plan for my life... and then... last week my dad called that my sister was int he ER and now my brother just called as he was on his way to the ER.. and i just dont know!!!! God has been teaching me and blessing me in so many different ways and then i look at life and am just like what in the world is going on?!... i just don't understand sometimes...

God is Sovereign!!

So.. God has been teaching me so much lately. I just love reading His Word and getting His direction for life. Its been refreshing. He's been showing me a lot about the power of prayer as well.... One example would be I prayed for a friend about something that God placed as a burden on my heart. I didn't even know if there was a problem or not, I just knew I had to pray. I also sent her a note with some things I'd been learning and thought I needed to share with her. Only a week later, she called me. She had read what I had sent her and it was exactly what she had needed at the moment. The very thing I had prayed about for her, was exactly what she had been going through even though I didnt know for sure or not. God answered my prayer in such an amazing way... I'm so excited about how much I've been learning and also about what God has left for me to learn :-)

YAY ALEXA!!! :-)

so during my high school senior basketball season a a little girl from one of the girls on our teams church was diagnosed with cancer. We as a team decided we wanted to help her out and encourage her some. We got her a build-a-bear (basketball one :-) ). and got a picture of our team taken and all signed it. Two of the other senors on the team and I went over to visit her with the gifts. She was sucha bundle of joy! She never stopped smiling despite what she was going through. It was hard seeing this little girl with no hair and tubes in her nose. And yet, despite all of that as I said.. she was so full of joy! She was like any other four year old girl, having fun. She showed us her princess room and played hot potato with us. It was an incredible experience. Well, Alexa went through radiation and surgeries, and as of this past week, SHE IS CANCER FREE!!! I was so excited to hear that's shes doing so well!!! :-) God sure does answer prayer!

so do we truly realize what a great blessing it is to be here at a Bible school??? I dont think we do often times. Today in chapel, we were singing about the depth of God's mercy. "Depth of mercy, can there be, mercy still reserved for me?" God shows each and every one of us mercy. I was just blown away standing there and bieng like, wow... God has completely blesed me to be able to be in an environment like the one here at BBC. We are around professors who know their stuff and want to see us learn and grow as well. We ar around other students who encourage, share, and grow us. I just completely got caught up in the moent and am reminded of how thankful I am to come to school here at BBC. It's the best place to prepare for ministry, and I am eternally greatful that God gave me the privilege of attending this school. That's what it is... a privilege.

Psalm 17:15
"As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness;
I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness."

WOW, this verse is amazing. When we are righteous, we will "see Your face." But i think even bigger than that is the second portion...not until I awake in His likeness will I be satisfied... As Christians, we should not feel as though we've gotten where we need to be in our spiritual walk. Until heaven, we will achieve perfection which is the likeness of Christ. So every day, we should be striving to become more like Christ. We will not have satisfaction b/c we will never be at the place we should be while we are here on earth. It's funny, I was just thinking of a question that was asked of me once... Who do you think is the Christian more content with where they are at in his walk? The one who is complacent? or the one who is not comfortable with where they're at and striving to know God more? The complacent Christian is far more content with their walk with God. This is why they are not striving to go any further. The Christian who is daily reading, and pursuing the righteousness of God is not content with where He is with God and therefore is trying to learn more and more to become more like Christ. So, today I challenge myself, and hopefully you through that, not to be satisfied until you reach the likeness of Christ.